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As I am walking out, I get anxious thanks to these nerves of mine. I’ve never really got into a stranger’s car before. Well it’s not like he’s that strange right? He is after all my neighbor. God he is so sexy. His smile is so hard to resist. I bite my lip trying to control myself, not wanting him to know how he truly makes me feel. When I see him, I have no control over wanting him.

As I get into his car to sit down, all I can focus on is how amazing it smells inside. His cologne makes my body want to react in ways I can’t explain. As I am opening and shutting my legs trying to control my urges. I am becoming wet in between my legs just being in his presence. I wonder, why is my body reacting this way just being around him.

” Hey Jessica, How was work?”

“It was okay of course, but I was happy that it is quitting time. I can’t stand being there some days, my boss can just be too much.”

I’m trying so hard not to stutter my words. I don’t want to come across like I’m a dumb ass in front of him. He seems so interested in me not really sure why, but I am just as interested in him. He is just insanely sexy, he knows it too as he smirks at me. I’m just curious what he is thinking about. I try to get the conversation started so I just start talking to him.

“So Matt, what did you do today?”

“Well my day wasn’t filled with very much of anything. I had to run an errand. I figured I would see if you needed a ride home, instead of riding the bus.”

“That’s crazy, I didn’t remember telling you where I worked. That just shows you the terrible memory I have.” I giggle out loud.

“Its okay Jessica we all have some kind of syndrome, you just have C. R. S.”

“C. R. S, what the hell is that? I don’t have that. I don’t even no what that is.”

He laughs, ” It was a joke”

“What does C. R. S mean?”

“He laughs, that you can’t remember shit”

“Oh my god that is funny,” I laugh out loud. I can’t believe I didn’t know that. That is actually pretty clever.”

As we are approaching our apartment building, I want to ask him over to my apartment but I’m nervous. I haven’t really been with anyone besides Jake. I want to be brave and invite him into my apartment even if it’s just to watch a movie. I mean it’s obvious that he has some kind of attraction towards me. That he wants to hang out with me, but the fear of rejection overcomes me.

Just the fact that we are neighbors, What if something would happen? I wouldn’t want either one of us to feel uncomfortable around each other. Here I go over thinking everything, like I always do. I can’t just live in the moment. I have to think about every little thing. As we both get out the car we head into the apartment building.Content protected by Nôv/el(D)rama.Org.

I say to him, “Thank you so much for the ride you have no idea how much I appreciate it.”

He then looks at me and says, ” Well Jessica it doesn’t have to end.”

“Matt would you like to come to my apartment maybe watch a movie or play cards or something?”

I look at him and I smile. “That would be amazing, Yes I would love to!”

As we are walking up the stairs, I am so excited that I get to spend sometime with him just to have fun. I want to be able to be brave and outspoken but sometimes having the fear of being judged, I pause and I can’t. When we get to the floor we live on, I look and notice someone is standing at my door.

How lovely! It’s no one other than my mother. She’s going to see me with somebody else and she is going to be furious with me. I’ve been dodging her calls all day, so I am not surprised that she just decided to show up.

There you are Jessica, I don’t understand why you don’t know how to answer your phone, when your mother is calling you.

I was at work mom, I can’t just answer my phone anytime I want you know that.

I’ve been trying to call you for days now. You just have not answered any of my phone calls. Why haven’t you because you don’t want to talk to me? Am I right?

Mother come in! Please talk about this in my apartment, instead of you shouting in the hallway, for all my neighbors to hear.

I look at Matt and nod my head. Hopefully he knows how sorry I am. I’m sure we will get another chance on another day, when my mother isn’t here to ruin it for me. I want him so bad. I want to feel his hands on my body but it’s going to have to wait. Now that my mother is here, she is going to try to get me and Jake back together. I am so sick of her trying to control everything. She needs to let me live my own life.

She will never allow it, she will always have to butt in and give her two sense in everything I do. As we walk into my apartment, I await on what she’s about to say. I know exactly what this whole conversation is going to be about. So it fucking begins, its such bullshit, I’m so sick of it.