Chapter Fifty-two: RYAN HAS GONE ROUGE
“Clara, are you okay? You haven’t said a word since we came back from that meeting.”
“I’m fine,” I grumbled.
“Alright, come to the diner, we would be having dinner together.” He offered, eyes trained on me.
“I’m not hungry.” I muttered as I squared my shoulders.
“But you haven’t eaten anything all day.”
“I said I am not hungry.”
“C’mon Clara, you and I know that that’s a lie.”
“So now you read minds too?”
“I don’t understand why you are mad. Well if you still wouldn’t talk, can we at least have dinner together? I can have the chef prepare whatever you want. Meet me at the diner if you change your mind,” he said as he walked away. I just stood there without words.
The rumble in my stomach increased. At that point, I needed Beth perhaps she would have helped me with the meals and I wouldn’t have to go to the diner to eat with Ryan so that he would not know how furious I was at the moment.
I stood for a while without the slightest idea on what next to do except the fact that I needed something in my stomach. Without thinking any further, I walked down to the diner and he was already seated waiting for me. He smiled at me as soon as he sighted me walking towards him.
“You look beautiful,” he said as I approached but I said nothing settling in. Just before I began digging in, Madam Ana walked in as she served the main course. I could feel a pound in my chest as soon as I saw her and all the incident involving Patricia replayed in my head. I quickly looked away but there was no were to hide. But something was different about her. It was the way she looked at me.
The fire that I usually saw in her eyes was just left with its smokes, even the sparks that usually burned whenever she spoke fiercely to me was absent. They looked lost perhaps without her daughter around life was different. I hated the fact that I still felt guilty about it. She just dropped the dish and walked away without saying a word and I was left to face Ryan again.
“You still have that look,” he said
“What look?
“The one you had all through the ride.”
“What is going on in that head of yours?”
“I don’t know, perhaps a lot.”
“Care to share?”
“No Ryan, I came here to eat.”
“It’s okay, let’s eat then. Then maybe we can talk about what is bothering you up there,” he smiled. One of the maids dropped a bottle of wine just in front of me.
“No, give her the red wine,” he ordered.
“Why?” I asked.
“The red wine is good for you.”
“A doctors prescription?”
“Not at all, its just what’s best for you.”
“Fuck Ryan,” I threw the fork back on the dish.
“What? You don’t like the meal?”
“Why do you always do this?”
“Do what?”
“Act like you care when you clearly don’t.”
“I don’t understand, have I done anything to upset you?”
“You do this every time and you are still not seeing what you have done?”
“Can you just speak in plain terms. I am a bit confused.”
“Oh yeah, of course, I’ll tell you. If I am free as you claimed, then you would have to let me make certain decisions by myself.”
“Is this about the wine? Or something else.”
“Just get the point. I know that you say you care about me but you really have to allow me do things myself. I am not your responsibility. I am a grown woman and I can handle shits myself.”
“I am only looking out for you. How would you not want that?”
“Who says I don’t? I am not ungrateful. I appreciate you a lot. Don’t get me wrong. But you know that you really have to stop doing all of this.”
“I still don’t get what you should be flaring about. Every girl would want this.”This text is property of Nô/velD/rama.Org.
“Well, I am not every girl and you should know that. And one more thing, what was that all about at the meeting?”
“What was what?”
“The banter with Kieran.”
“I was only trying to protect my territory. At least now he would know that you belong to me.”
“Ryan you must really be a joker to actually think that I belong to you.”
“Clara, can’t you see what he is trying to do to us.”
“Us? Ryan, last I remember there is no us. And besides, I am leaving in a few days. Maybe after then, you would know that I can make these decisions by myself. You know what? I was actually very hungry when I came up here to eat with you. But it is clear that its not going to happen. I think I just lost my appetite.” I left the table as I walked out.
“Where are you going to? C’mon Clara, lets not ruin this beautiful time now,” he called out as he trailed behind me.
“Well, too late you already ruined it. Just stop following me.” I didn’t return to the dinning neither did I even turn back.”
“At least tell me were you are hurrying to,” he kept walking on.
“Oh I thought you were following me? Tired already? Well if you must know, I am going to my room to pack up whatever is valuable enough for me to go with.”
“But its not thirty days yet.”
“I know, a few more days and I would be out of here. I am just making the necessary preparations.”
“Now you are making me feel bad.”
“You make me feel worse sometimes Ryan, really you do.”
“I’m sorry Clara,” he said as he both stood by the door of my room.
“It’s not about telling me that you are sorry every time. I just need you to understand that we have certain boundaries. We aren’t in any relationship and we will never be. And I would really appreciate it if you can stuck to what you promised. Stick to your words and let me go. Kieran is just a proud psycho. His words aren’t important and so they shouldn’t matter to you. What matters is what happened right here. I hope you understand.”
“I understand that, that is why I can’t let him or anyone else have you.”
“What do you mean by that?” Before I could realize what was going on, I felt a hard push on my back as I fell face down into the room. He closed the door behind me. I hurried back on my feet to get to the door but I was only there on time to hear its several clicks in the latch and then the final lock.
“Ryan! Ryan! What are you doing?!”
“I’m sorry Clara but I can’t let you go. I can’t let anyone else have you. I’ll send the guards to bring you your meal and whatever it is that you want.
“Ryan please let me out! you promised that I was free and not a slave anymore” I frantically hit the door but it just wouldn’t budge.