HIS TRUE BEAUTY

His face was priceless, he looked scared of me for a moment, I was weird to him, gosh I am so stupid, embarrassing myself like that in front of him?

The woman cuts into my awkwardness.

“You said potatoes before..”

Her brows arched , she looked pissed by my cringe behaviour.

I turned and looked at the woman absentmindedly.

She looked like she would love to slap me but Bruno must be a huge obstacle for her.

I sighed, grateful he was here with me or else, I am pretty sure she is gonna do something horrible to me.

I laughed awkwardly.

“Oh yeah yeah pota… potatoes, I am sorry”.

I brushed my hair with my finger and bent my head slowly, embarrassed.

“I am sorry”.

I apologised again in a whisper.

She dished the food out , I carried the tray of food and bowed to thank her after

I slowly walked to my favourite table spot to eat.

I had the temptation to turn and look at Bruno again, after his order was served he turned and started walking towards me!

“Oh no!”

I quickly buried my face in my food and pretended to be eating.

I heard the chair at the table opposite mine pulled out, slowly I looked up and found him sitting In Front of me!

I couldn’t take my eyes off him yet he didn’t even look up at me, he was acting like I am completely invisible.

Could it be that he came here intentionally to sit with me?

I waved it off.

Of course not, you are the one into him not the other way round silly! He just chooses a seat and is obviously minding his own business.

I fought within myself, and tried to concentrate on my lunch but my hands were shaking nervously. I can’t eat in peace being in front of him, I need to be an ideal girl type, he is my crush and I have to impress him at least, take chances.

I took a deep breath and opened my eyes, with a smile I took a spoonful elegantly.

“Beauty!”

Jessi appeared from nowhere and snapped into my ear to startle me intentionally.

I choked on my food

“Jes.. sssi”.

I coughed and grabbed my cup of water.

“I am so sorry”.

She is always sorry after a childish act.

Furiously I looked at her , then back again this time fast to check out what I saw again.

“Jessi you are braless”

I whispered, covering my face.

“Yeah it’s no bra day, everyone is supporting except you”.

“It’s indecent”

I whispered back, feeling a bit insecure, how she has such a perfect pair even without a bra.

Her boobs were perfect , her nipples were visibly piercing through her transparent white crop top, down her tiny waist, her pierced belly button and that tiny waist head on her waist.

I sighed.

“The truth is that everyone is perfect here except me”.

I can’t believe I said it out, I covered my mouth with my hands, I gazed up at Bruno, and wondered if he heard me, but as soon as I saw the earphone on him, I was relieved.

He was texting with his phone and eating at the same time.

“Oh come on beauty, you are also beautiful you know, you are just … chubby”.

I sighed again.

“You can call me fat, it’s okay Jessi I won’t get offended.

“For goodness sake you ain’t fat, you are chubby, there’s a huge difference okay?”

I stole a glance at Bruno again, he never looked up at us, how can someone be so anti-social.

“Jessi, can we talk later? I want to eat now please”.

I hope she buys it.

“Why?”

Jessi replied.

I knew it won’t be so easy though.

“Like I said I want to eat”.

I snapped back.

“You look uneasy. Why are you so uneasy?”

“I am not!”

I snapped back.

“Yes you are, you are sweating , what’s up babe?”

She replied.

“Jessi please, for goodness sake! Food time okay, we will continue after I have to eat and get back to work”.

I sounded serious in a way that she suddenly agreed.

“Well why not, that tone in your voice scares me girl”she replied.

I shook my head.

She leaned forward, pecked my cheek and left.

I stole a gaze again at the table where Bruno was sitting.

His phone still in his hand , he hardly touched his food, he looked so into his phone, with his hands working on it like he was being remotely controlled.

“I need to say something, I can do this, just say something, thank him for standing up for you, this is the only time I can get to talk to him in person outside work stuff, go and show your gratitude…oh no I can’t do this”.

I covered my face and sighed, my palms and ears turned red.

you are only going to embarrass yourself. You will look like a joke to him, desperate for attention, you are fat and ugly, and everyone sees you as an idiot, even… Jessi sometimes, how on Earth do you think you will make friends with him, Mr Bruno?”

A tear dropped down my eye.

Oh no I need to stop thinking or I embarrassed myself with those tears.

I dumped my eyes, slowly I looked up and then our eyes met, I quickly faced the food I was eating, pretending to be seriously enjoying it.

Oh my God that was unexpected!

How long has he been staring?

Is he still staring at me?

Slowly I stole a glance.

His eyes were back to his phone

I should do it, what’s the worst that can happen?

I cleared my throat , finally I am going to say something to him after three years working in the same company.Please check at N/ôvel(D)rama.Org.

What should I say, I need to say something first.

Sir you haven’t touched your food, are you worried….. you can talk to me..

No no way, sounds like a pick me line.

Sir, you are pressing the phone while eating, bad table manners, What the hell, I am not his mother either, what’s the best words to start with!

I was dragging my mind.

“Nice phone pouch sir”.

Wait I said this one out, so stupid, I slapped my forehead.

He gazed at me and then to his phone pouch.

It’s just plain black. I smiled nervously at him realising how stupid I must have sounded to him.

“Thanks”.

His voice was calm.

“He said thanks?”

I murmured shocked at that response.